Phantom pain is known as “pain that feels like it’s coming from a body part that’s no longer there” (Mayo Clinic Staff, 2018). When I had broken up with the guy who I had been dating during the school year, it was like my heart had been ripped from my chest. But why?
The first few months were amazing, but after a while it became routine. Then, we began to rely on each other….. I have never wanted to fully rely on anyone, it is not an ideal situation for me, and I don’t want someone to rely fully on me. That was a biggg no no. At the time, I was the one keeping him accountable with homework and it almost seemed like I was playing mom.
But still, after we had broken up, part of me left with him. I was extremely sad and definitely lonely. I had just moved back to England for work, and I was udderly alone.
Although, when I had started making friends everything got better! I started going out and enjoying my time away from the States. I met an AMAZING group of people whom I miss everyday. This made me realize that I didn’t really miss him, I missed the attention he gave me.
The phantom pain from missing him had vanished without me even realizing it. That eight month relationship was gone, I was not mom anymore. But then I moved back to school…..
Will keep the story going in my next post!
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